The Silent City, Where My Tears Fall


It is 1:04 a.m. on Tuesday. Large tears are running down my cheeks, but there is no sound.

There is a silent city, within the city where I have lived for 20 years. The silent city is the place where people are not noticed unless they speak up. Many will not speak up if they are treated badly, because they fear people will not assist them.

It is a city behind the scenes. The city of the broken, the hurting, the battered and the bruised.

It is the silent city of Christians who have experienced, verbal abuse, rejection, blame and neglect from christian leaders and their brothers and sisters in Christ,

It is the place where the hand that helps us up, is only with us for a short time, before they push us down to the bottom again.

In the Silent City we live on the edge of homelessness. Many times we try to move out, but then we are pushed down again.

In this place, the silent city, the tears fall frequently unless we become bitter. Yet, Jesus see’s our tears, our hurting heart and pain heaped upon us from the people in charge in the Silent City.

I live in the silent city in my daily life, except when I am speaking online, through writing, video and podcasts, along with social media. Or when I am traveling to a far away land.

In this place the leaders who oppress the people who live in the Silent City, will occassionally be unable to silence the voices of the abused, rejected and neglected.

The people who reside in the Silent City, help one another. They extend a helping hand, in prayer, and with what little money they may possess.

Yes, the Silent City is real, and it is a place where Jesus resides. It is the place where we are not ashamed of tears, and we stay away from church politics.

You see I chose to live in the Silent City of my city for 10 years. It is time for me to come out of the Silent City. I will speak, and I will not be quiet, for it is time for the Silent City of my city to be heard.

And then…when I have no more words left, it will be time for me to move on. Even if it is necessary to shake the dust off my feet, because no one will listen outside of the walls of the Silent City, I will be at rest. For the only part that is mine to carry out is to be obedient.

In the Silent City we live close to Jesus, because he stretches out his hands, when no one is around to see the large tears falling down our cheeks. We may be flat on our face, or on our knees, not knowing if we will have a roof over our head in a few days, or food to eat. It is in this place where we meet Jesus.

We are not all drug addicts, alcholics or have other addictions. We are the Silent City.

James 2: 1-10  1-4 My dear friends, don’t let public opinion influence how you live out our glorious, Christ-originated faith. If a man enters your church wearing an expensive suit, and a street person wearing rags comes in right after him, and you say to the man in the suit, “Sit here, sir; this is the best seat in the house!” and either ignore the street person or say, “Better sit here in the back row,” haven’t you segregated God’s children and proved that you are judges who can’t be trusted?

5-7 Listen, dear friends. Isn’t it clear by now that God operates quite differently? He chose the world’s down-and-out as the kingdom’s first citizens, with full rights and privileges. This kingdom is promised to anyone who loves God. And here you are abusing these same citizens! Isn’t it the high and mighty who exploit you, who use the courts to rob you blind? Aren’t they the ones who scorn the new name—“Christian”—used in your baptisms? (The Message)

~Selah~ (Pause)

Nancy Watta

A Temporary Resident of the Silent City in Fort Wayne, Indiana

Copyright, 2017, Nancy J. Watta



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