“He Has Aspergers” and Everything Else I Never Wanted To Hear About My Son

Today I am posting this for the brave and courageous women who are mothers to special needs children. You are special, you are courageous, you are loved and never forgotten by God. This is a journey that must be traveled that is not the same as traveling to another country. This journey requires daily courage. As for me just as in any situation I belief Jesus Christ is the answer. I am one who

believes in the healing power of Jesus Christ and I for one keep praying for those who struggle with physical, emotional issues or mental disabilities. The healing is in the hands of God, and I do not understand the why when the healing does not come. BUT I do know that Jesus Christ is the one who will help us through the tough spots of life when we think we cannot go on.

A Buick in the Land of Lexus

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Do you hear that?

Come closer.

That’s the sound of my heart breaking.

My son has always loved the ocean. His eyes are the color of the sea, changing from blue to green with the swell of the tide.  And my love for him is an ocean, an overwhelming force which is sometimes calm and steady, and other times full of conflict.

A mother’s love is like the continuous miracle of the sea. It begins in the ocean of your womb – but there is something unsettling about the way your baby kicks. So fiercely you feel bruised on the inside.

There is something willful and stubborn about his refusal to come out. He arrives weeks late, and even then – after almost 40 hours of labor.

Your baby is overwhelming and mysterious and brutal, like the ocean. He screams uncontrollably for hours a day, every day. And you bring him to…

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Did you know there are angels among us?

Have you even noticed that many who write do their best writing when in the middle of struggles?

Lyrics to Angels Among Us

I was walking home from school, on a cold winter day
Took a shortcut through the woods, and I lost my way
It was getting late, and I was scared and alone
But then a kind old man, took my hand, and led me home
Mama couldn’t see him, oh but he was standing there
And I knew in my heart, he was the answer to my prayers

Oh I believe there are, angels among us
Sent down to us, from somewhere up above
They come to you and me, in our darkest hours
To show us how to live, to teach us how to give
To guide us with the light of love

When life held troubled times, and had me down on my knees
There’s always been someone, to come along, and comfort me
A kind word from a stranger, to lend a helping hand
A phone call from a friend, just to say, I understand
But ain’t it kind of funny, at the dark end of the road
That someone lights the way, with just a single ray of hope

Oh I believe there are, angels among us
Sent down to us, from somewhere up above
They come to you and me, in our darkest hours
To show us how to live, to teach us how to give
To guide us with the light of love

They wear so many faces, show up in the strangest places
To grace us with their mercy, in our time of need

Oh I believe there are, angels among us
Sent down to us, from somewhere up above
They come to you and me, in our darkest hours
To show us how to live, to teach us how to give
To guide us with the light of love
To guide us with a light of love

 

When Restlessness Answers, by Nancy J.

My life began in a small country home, with 3 sisters and 1 brother. We lived on a dirt road outside of a small city. I married at the age of 17, became a mother to a daughter and son, divorced after 15 years and I am still single today. As I write and look back I treasure my memories from my growing up years and becoming a mother. When we treasure our memories the treasures are memories that are beautiful and those that are painful. Yet, for all of us whether good or bad, they are what shape us into the men and women we are today.

In the last few weeks, I began to feel a restlessness that arrived at unexpected times of my day. This morning as I started my day this restless arrived again. I stopped what I was doing and decided to see if today was the day for me to understand the meaning of my restlessness. It is the day.

As I looked at photos, the answer arrived with more clarity. I am experiencing restlessness from people from my past, and my current life who are waiting for me to return to the person I use to be. It continued when a gentleman asked me to sit down with him, and he would share with me what I did wrong in the past. Of course I turned him down, because these kind of issues are best for us to meet with people we trust and approach such topics with a gentle spirit.

I smile as I upload my photos to share with you. I smile as the answer to my restlessness arrives. My travels and circumstances changed my life forever, and there is no turning back. It is a time of letting go and moving on, even when others try to hold on to us tightly. Our life is a journey and we change as we experience new things, whether they are experiences of joy or pain! Change is good!

Is there anything or anyone that you need to let go of today? Are you living in a new season of life and allowing others to keep you from the joy of the new season? Do not allow others to hinder your dreams, your desires, and hold on to you as you move ahead. Travel, write and experience each day to the fullest.

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The home where I grew up, with 3 sisters and 1 brother.

 

 

 

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The dirt road leading to my history and growing up years.

 

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My first International trip to the Ukraine. Teaching teachers to teach.
The second country sharing the Relationship Workshop with people in a far away land. Serving, where our feet are planted.
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The Relationship Workshop, Sharing with others in a far away land.
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The first place the Relationship Workshop was taught. In a far way village in Africa, where people are filled with joy.
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The future! A small city near the ocean! More travel, more writing and church planting!

The Reality of The Call, When God Calls A Woman

Relationships of the Heart with Nancy

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Recently, I watched a video of a woman being ordained in a denomination that previously rejected, said harsh words, and broke the hearts of many women. I had no idea that watching this video would be the catalyst to cause me to start writing again. The most difficult part of watching this was that the same people who rejected, spoke harsh words, and said, “Nancy Pastor = man are now licensing women.”

The same men who said, “Nancy no one will hire you, you are a woman. Unfortunately this also brings back the memory of the man chasing me in the University parking lot, trying to talk me into stepping out of the University Pastoral Ministry program. There were women who told me to be quiet because they said, I was causing problems and they did not believe women should be allowed to be Pastors. In fact the one who gave…

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When The Truth Is Revealed! The Vision Grows!

As I listen to this song all kinds of relationships apply to this song. For me this song reminds me that as we build a team for The Relationship Project, we will build a team that will stand by each other. Maybe someone needs to hear these words tonight. A few times in my life organizations threw me overboard and disconnected. BUT it did not stop me from moving forward or continuing on with what I am to do in this world.

Tonight I finally received confirmation of the why a group threw me overboard.  What I was observing without speaking was right on! Many times people will give us a reason that is not the true reason. Beware of people who are ladder climbers, they will sacrifice you for their gain. They will even talk about you behind your back and there will be times they will reveal the truth without realizing they are revealing it. Listen closely to what is said and what is written.

If one group of people throw us overboard, it does not mean we must discontinue our vision or plan. In fact what usually happens is we will find ourselves in the middle of a new group of people and what we are working on will grow to huge proportions if we DO NOT GIVE UP, stay focused and be discerning with who we bring up close to our projects. Whether your dream is to write or to travel; make a plan, set short term goals and long term goals, take a step and eventually you will find yourself at your destination.

As for me, I am standing with you! As for my readers, make a decision and do not give up!  (Nancy J. the author of Life Time Writer.)

This Sunday I Choose Joy!

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Today I decided to live my day in quiet contemplation. I thought of my trip to Africa a few years ago and 3 others countries. These trips changed my life forever. In fact they changed the way I listen in the U.S.A. They changed what I see as struggle in comparison to those who complain in the U.S.A.

Today after church I made my way to a local McDonald’s, ordered a coffee and a chicken sandwich and found a quiet corner. I sat with my tablet, paper and pen and wrote a few thoughts on what I will be writing on this week.

A young couple sat next to me and we began a conversation about technology. They left and replaced by a family. We also had an interesting conversation and we laughed together. Their grade school children were having problems imagining what life was like before games and smart phones.

Eventually I packed everything up and wished my new friends a good day and made my way to my car. A young man began to chat with me about the weather. I stopped and we laughed and we chatted. As I drove away I thought of the many people who try to take away my joy in this season of my life. They are the ones who want me to live immersed in their struggles and listen 24/7. They forget that those who lead and listen have feelings too. You see this all began a couple of weeks ago when I was hanging out with friends.

In our conversation these were the words that flowed out of my lips, “I have no life, living here.”  I am reminded of the same words tonight, I decided I will not feel guilty for taking a break from listening to others in this city.

This is my season, and I am walking into new relationships with a decision to choose joy. With a focus on my family who I love very much.