When Our Heart is Ripped to Shreds

Only a may understand the words this may rip my to shreds..

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Life on Paper…with Nancy J.

The journals of Nancy J. A story of wandering, searching and battle.

The Place To Process Thoughts In Africa

Photo- My desk in Africa in 2009. Looking out my guest house window.

Africa across street from hotel

Photo- The view from my desk in Africa. Each morning I watched the shops open for business. Many of the businesses were operated by women.

Next Week is the week! I will begin sharing a few thoughts from my journals on, “The Life Time Writer.”

My pages are filled with words of the ups and downs of life. Years ago he big struggle began when my feet landed in my current city.

Up, down, sideways, including legalism and battles specifically fought as a woman in the business world and the world of religion.

Life on paper…

To be continued…

Nancy J.

When Restlessness Answers, by Nancy J.

My life began in a small country home, with 3 sisters and 1 brother. We lived on a dirt road outside of a small city. I married at the age of 17, became a mother to a daughter and son, divorced after 15 years and I am still single today. As I write and look back I treasure my memories from my growing up years and becoming a mother. When we treasure our memories the treasures are memories that are beautiful and those that are painful. Yet, for all of us whether good or bad, they are what shape us into the men and women we are today.

In the last few weeks, I began to feel a restlessness that arrived at unexpected times of my day. This morning as I started my day this restless arrived again. I stopped what I was doing and decided to see if today was the day for me to understand the meaning of my restlessness. It is the day.

As I looked at photos, the answer arrived with more clarity. I am experiencing restlessness from people from my past, and my current life who are waiting for me to return to the person I use to be. It continued when a gentleman asked me to sit down with him, and he would share with me what I did wrong in the past. Of course I turned him down, because these kind of issues are best for us to meet with people we trust and approach such topics with a gentle spirit.

I smile as I upload my photos to share with you. I smile as the answer to my restlessness arrives. My travels and circumstances changed my life forever, and there is no turning back. It is a time of letting go and moving on, even when others try to hold on to us tightly. Our life is a journey and we change as we experience new things, whether they are experiences of joy or pain! Change is good!

Is there anything or anyone that you need to let go of today? Are you living in a new season of life and allowing others to keep you from the joy of the new season? Do not allow others to hinder your dreams, your desires, and hold on to you as you move ahead. Travel, write and experience each day to the fullest.

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The home where I grew up, with 3 sisters and 1 brother.

 

 

 

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The dirt road leading to my history and growing up years.

 

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My first International trip to the Ukraine. Teaching teachers to teach.
The second country sharing the Relationship Workshop with people in a far away land. Serving, where our feet are planted.
luggage, when God calls a woman
The working title for the book.
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The Relationship Workshop, Sharing with others in a far away land.
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The first place the Relationship Workshop was taught. In a far way village in Africa, where people are filled with joy.
restoration, Aug, 2014
Worship time with friends in the U.S.A.
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The future! A small city near the ocean! More travel, more writing and church planting!

When The Truth Is Revealed! The Vision Grows!

As I listen to this song all kinds of relationships apply to this song. For me this song reminds me that as we build a team for The Relationship Project, we will build a team that will stand by each other. Maybe someone needs to hear these words tonight. A few times in my life organizations threw me overboard and disconnected. BUT it did not stop me from moving forward or continuing on with what I am to do in this world.

Tonight I finally received confirmation of the why a group threw me overboard.  What I was observing without speaking was right on! Many times people will give us a reason that is not the true reason. Beware of people who are ladder climbers, they will sacrifice you for their gain. They will even talk about you behind your back and there will be times they will reveal the truth without realizing they are revealing it. Listen closely to what is said and what is written.

If one group of people throw us overboard, it does not mean we must discontinue our vision or plan. In fact what usually happens is we will find ourselves in the middle of a new group of people and what we are working on will grow to huge proportions if we DO NOT GIVE UP, stay focused and be discerning with who we bring up close to our projects. Whether your dream is to write or to travel; make a plan, set short term goals and long term goals, take a step and eventually you will find yourself at your destination.

As for me, I am standing with you! As for my readers, make a decision and do not give up!  (Nancy J. the author of Life Time Writer.)

This Sunday I Choose Joy!

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Today I decided to live my day in quiet contemplation. I thought of my trip to Africa a few years ago and 3 others countries. These trips changed my life forever. In fact they changed the way I listen in the U.S.A. They changed what I see as struggle in comparison to those who complain in the U.S.A.

Today after church I made my way to a local McDonald’s, ordered a coffee and a chicken sandwich and found a quiet corner. I sat with my tablet, paper and pen and wrote a few thoughts on what I will be writing on this week.

A young couple sat next to me and we began a conversation about technology. They left and replaced by a family. We also had an interesting conversation and we laughed together. Their grade school children were having problems imagining what life was like before games and smart phones.

Eventually I packed everything up and wished my new friends a good day and made my way to my car. A young man began to chat with me about the weather. I stopped and we laughed and we chatted. As I drove away I thought of the many people who try to take away my joy in this season of my life. They are the ones who want me to live immersed in their struggles and listen 24/7. They forget that those who lead and listen have feelings too. You see this all began a couple of weeks ago when I was hanging out with friends.

In our conversation these were the words that flowed out of my lips, “I have no life, living here.”  I am reminded of the same words tonight, I decided I will not feel guilty for taking a break from listening to others in this city.

This is my season, and I am walking into new relationships with a decision to choose joy. With a focus on my family who I love very much.