Life on Paper…with Nancy J.

The journals of Nancy J. A story of wandering, searching and battle.

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The Place To Process Thoughts In Africa

Photo- My desk in Africa in 2009. Looking out my guest house window.

Africa across street from hotel

Photo- The view from my desk in Africa. Each morning I watched the shops open for business. Many of the businesses were operated by women.

Next Week is the week! I will begin sharing a few thoughts from my journals on, “The Life Time Writer.”

My pages are filled with words of the ups and downs of life. Years ago he big struggle began when my feet landed in my current city.

Up, down, sideways, including legalism and battles specifically fought as a woman in the business world and the world of religion.

Life on paper…

To be continued…

Nancy J.

Excerpt, When God Calls A Woman, with Nancy

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Revelation; God’s disclosure of himself and his will. (Dictionary.com) 2 Chronicles Chapter 1:9-10

Last night before I closed my eyes for the evening, I began to read 2 Chronicles chapter 1. Verse 9-10, jumped out at me, “Now, LORD God, please keep your promise to David my father, for you have made me king over a people as numerous as the dust of the earth! Give me wisdom and knowledge to rule them properly, for who is able to govern this great nation of yours?”

Now don’t go thinking that I am going to share that I am a king who will rule over a nation or over you. God used this passage to prompt me to pray. As I prayed I asked God to give me his wisdom and knowledge in all that he gives me to do. In my personal and leadership life.

This morning I began my day reading. I read an email that was a question about a book review that I agreed to do. The question arrived with a suddenly for me that had nothing to do with the question. I was not praying. I was not looking for an answer to a question. The suddenly arrived with an answer that I was not seeking. In fact I forgot about my prayer request to God the night before. Have you ever experienced this situation? This is a revelation. It is a morning that God disclosed himself and his will for me.

This involves my big life change that happened 7 years ago. My company closed, my University closed, I could no longer afford my apartment and moved into someone’s basement. Eventually I could no longer afford my car and it was gone too! I was on the edge of homelessness. Everywhere I turned the door slammed in my face. Assistance was available with a few organizations but came with a long list of conditions and requirements.

This morning I realized that although I thought I was doing well a wound was hanging out in the depths of my heart. I felt that what I had to say was no longer important in my country. We value jobs, homes, cars, money in the bank, and all sorts of material stuff. Somehow even though I traveled to preach/teach in other countries, I felt I had no right to speak up in my country including in our churches. I allowed the enemy to silence my voice in my country, because I no longer have what people place value on in the United States. Unfortunately I also allowed the enemy to use the voices of others around me in my city to speak worthlessness into my life. Without realizing it, I took this into my heart and my mind.

I am thankful for the revelation that arrived on the doorstep of my office and in my heart this morning. God disclosed his thinking and heart on this problem in my heart and healed a wound that I did not know existed. In this I find freedom.

1 Peter 5:8 New International Version

Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour.

Matthew 6:19-21 New International Version

19 “Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moths and vermin destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. 20 But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moths and vermin do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. 21 For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

Copyright 2015, Nancy Watta, All Rights Reserved

When Restlessness Answers, by Nancy J.

My life began in a small country home, with 3 sisters and 1 brother. We lived on a dirt road outside of a small city. I married at the age of 17, became a mother to a daughter and son, divorced after 15 years and I am still single today. As I write and look back I treasure my memories from my growing up years and becoming a mother. When we treasure our memories the treasures are memories that are beautiful and those that are painful. Yet, for all of us whether good or bad, they are what shape us into the men and women we are today.

In the last few weeks, I began to feel a restlessness that arrived at unexpected times of my day. This morning as I started my day this restless arrived again. I stopped what I was doing and decided to see if today was the day for me to understand the meaning of my restlessness. It is the day.

As I looked at photos, the answer arrived with more clarity. I am experiencing restlessness from people from my past, and my current life who are waiting for me to return to the person I use to be. It continued when a gentleman asked me to sit down with him, and he would share with me what I did wrong in the past. Of course I turned him down, because these kind of issues are best for us to meet with people we trust and approach such topics with a gentle spirit.

I smile as I upload my photos to share with you. I smile as the answer to my restlessness arrives. My travels and circumstances changed my life forever, and there is no turning back. It is a time of letting go and moving on, even when others try to hold on to us tightly. Our life is a journey and we change as we experience new things, whether they are experiences of joy or pain! Change is good!

Is there anything or anyone that you need to let go of today? Are you living in a new season of life and allowing others to keep you from the joy of the new season? Do not allow others to hinder your dreams, your desires, and hold on to you as you move ahead. Travel, write and experience each day to the fullest.

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The home where I grew up, with 3 sisters and 1 brother.

 

 

 

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The dirt road leading to my history and growing up years.

 

UK group (2)
My first International trip to the Ukraine. Teaching teachers to teach.
The second country sharing the Relationship Workshop with people in a far away land. Serving, where our feet are planted.
luggage, when God calls a woman
The working title for the book.
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The Relationship Workshop, Sharing with others in a far away land.
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The first place the Relationship Workshop was taught. In a far way village in Africa, where people are filled with joy.
restoration, Aug, 2014
Worship time with friends in the U.S.A.
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The future! A small city near the ocean! More travel, more writing and church planting!