Excerpt from my Memoir, An Imperfect Woman

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I am releasing an excerpt from my Memoir to be released in 2019. 

This is a rough copy of a couple of very small segments of my life and is a non edited version, and is not necessarily the order of the paragraphs of the book when it is finished.

Not long ago, I listened to a teaching about David in the Old Testament. David was a man who loved God, and tried to obey. Did he mess up, yes but we still read he was a man following after the heart of God.

Nothing has changed in the area of our human nature. As Christians we point fingers at leaders who make mistakes, we blast them in text messages to others, we post trash about them and crucify them with words on social media, and in blogs.

In all of this God reminds me of the words, grace and mercy.
The word for today is, “However, when they persisted in questioning Him, He straightened up and said, “He who is without [any] sin among you, let him be the first to throw a stone at her.” John 8:7 AMP

As this word unfolded in my heart today, I was reminded that God allows me an imperfect woman to serve him, and to touch the hearts of leaders in the nations, with the love of Jesus Christ.

Just like Paul in 2 Corinthians 11:27;  I have labored and toiled and have often gone without sleep; I have known hunger and thirst and have often gone without food; I have been cold and naked.”

Although I definitely have not been naked, I know what it feels like to go shopping with people who spend a large amount of money, as I stand by and politely watch.

I know what it is like to eat less to feed my children, along with a few years ago as a single. I watched others fill their cupboards with food and eat in fancy restaurants, but I also know days of plenty.

I know what it is like to own a new car, and be on the opposite side with no vehicle and walk in the snow on a cold winter day to the bank and market. I know what is feels like to walk home in the snow-covered side walks with full bags. I know what it feels like to hear people complain about their homes, their full cupboards, and their vehicles.

Yet, in all of this I continue on, with whatever God places in my hand and extend grace and mercy to those who have more than me.

18 years ago I sat across the desk from a Pastor who was assisting me to walk through a difficult time in life. I recall  when I said, “I cannot do this!!

I was at the beginning of what I do now. He replied, ” What is that in your hand?” Next he simply stated, ” the only thing God gave to Moses was a staff.”

So no matter what happens in the area of finances and my abilities, just like Moses with only a staff, I will press on. And as I go, I forgive daily, for if I do not the Father will not forgive me.

~Nancy Watta~

 

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Excerpt, When God Calls A Woman, with Nancy

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Revelation; God’s disclosure of himself and his will. (Dictionary.com) 2 Chronicles Chapter 1:9-10

Last night before I closed my eyes for the evening, I began to read 2 Chronicles chapter 1. Verse 9-10, jumped out at me, “Now, LORD God, please keep your promise to David my father, for you have made me king over a people as numerous as the dust of the earth! Give me wisdom and knowledge to rule them properly, for who is able to govern this great nation of yours?”

Now don’t go thinking that I am going to share that I am a king who will rule over a nation or over you. God used this passage to prompt me to pray. As I prayed I asked God to give me his wisdom and knowledge in all that he gives me to do. In my personal and leadership life.

This morning I began my day reading. I read an email that was a question about a book review that I agreed to do. The question arrived with a suddenly for me that had nothing to do with the question. I was not praying. I was not looking for an answer to a question. The suddenly arrived with an answer that I was not seeking. In fact I forgot about my prayer request to God the night before. Have you ever experienced this situation? This is a revelation. It is a morning that God disclosed himself and his will for me.

This involves my big life change that happened 7 years ago. My company closed, my University closed, I could no longer afford my apartment and moved into someone’s basement. Eventually I could no longer afford my car and it was gone too! I was on the edge of homelessness. Everywhere I turned the door slammed in my face. Assistance was available with a few organizations but came with a long list of conditions and requirements.

This morning I realized that although I thought I was doing well a wound was hanging out in the depths of my heart. I felt that what I had to say was no longer important in my country. We value jobs, homes, cars, money in the bank, and all sorts of material stuff. Somehow even though I traveled to preach/teach in other countries, I felt I had no right to speak up in my country including in our churches. I allowed the enemy to silence my voice in my country, because I no longer have what people place value on in the United States. Unfortunately I also allowed the enemy to use the voices of others around me in my city to speak worthlessness into my life. Without realizing it, I took this into my heart and my mind.

I am thankful for the revelation that arrived on the doorstep of my office and in my heart this morning. God disclosed his thinking and heart on this problem in my heart and healed a wound that I did not know existed. In this I find freedom.

1 Peter 5:8 New International Version

Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour.

Matthew 6:19-21 New International Version

19 “Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moths and vermin destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. 20 But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moths and vermin do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. 21 For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

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