I am releasing an excerpt from my Memoir to be released in 2019.
This is a rough copy of a couple of very small segments of my life and is a non edited version, and is not necessarily the order of the paragraphs of the book when it is finished.
Not long ago, I listened to a teaching about David in the Old Testament. David was a man who loved God, and tried to obey. Did he mess up, yes but we still read he was a man following after the heart of God.
Nothing has changed in the area of our human nature. As Christians we point fingers at leaders who make mistakes, we blast them in text messages to others, we post trash about them and crucify them with words on social media, and in blogs.
In all of this God reminds me of the words, grace and mercy.
The word for today is, “However, when they persisted in questioning Him, He straightened up and said, “He who is without [any] sin among you, let him be the first to throw a stone at her.” John 8:7 AMP
As this word unfolded in my heart today, I was reminded that God allows me an imperfect woman to serve him, and to touch the hearts of leaders in the nations, with the love of Jesus Christ.
Just like Paul in 2 Corinthians 11:27; I have labored and toiled and have often gone without sleep; I have known hunger and thirst and have often gone without food; I have been cold and naked.”
Although I definitely have not been naked, I know what it feels like to go shopping with people who spend a large amount of money, as I stand by and politely watch.
I know what it is like to eat less to feed my children, along with a few years ago as a single. I watched others fill their cupboards with food and eat in fancy restaurants, but I also know days of plenty.
I know what it is like to own a new car, and be on the opposite side with no vehicle and walk in the snow on a cold winter day to the bank and market. I know what is feels like to walk home in the snow-covered side walks with full bags. I know what it feels like to hear people complain about their homes, their full cupboards, and their vehicles.
Yet, in all of this I continue on, with whatever God places in my hand and extend grace and mercy to those who have more than me.
18 years ago I sat across the desk from a Pastor who was assisting me to walk through a difficult time in life. I recall when I said, “I cannot do this!!
I was at the beginning of what I do now. He replied, ” What is that in your hand?” Next he simply stated, ” the only thing God gave to Moses was a staff.”
So no matter what happens in the area of finances and my abilities, just like Moses with only a staff, I will press on. And as I go, I forgive daily, for if I do not the Father will not forgive me.